It’s easy to assume that once we start walking with the Lord everything will work out perfectly in our lives. It’s easy to think that all of our dreams, desires, and wants will automatically be fulfilled and granted by our “genie”, God. What I often forgot is that God will grant our desires if they are in His timing, His will, and will give Him the most glory. Now this is difficult for our sinful minds to comprehend, because often the echo of our hearts shout “self self self” “me me me”, but God wants the echo of our hearts to shout JESUS JESUS JESUS!
I just recently received a phone call delivering news that I wasn’t chosen for a specific job position that I had my heart set on. For the past couple of months I have been completely invested in applying for this job, praying for the position, and researching more about the organization which resulted in a discovery of immense passion on my part. I really feel like I invested my whole life into this. Not only did this job seem like my “dream job”, it was also centered on Christ and I felt that this was my chance to begin my future career.
From the moment I saw the number appear on my phone I knew I didn’t get the position, and for that instant and for about 30 minutes following it seemed as if the world around me came crashing to the ground. Now I know I didn’t loose a loved one, get diagnosed with some incurable disease, or fail out of college, but in that moment and through all the emotions I invested into this potential position, I was a wreck. I sat crying, sobbing really, and giving my anger and emotions to God. How could he do this?! A position I wanted so badly, and a position that would only increase His glory!! I don’t understand, was all that kept flowing through my mind.
But when emotions overwhelm you, optimism is not the first thing that you focus on. For example, I should be thanking and praising God for getting me so far in an interview process that’s extremely competitive. I applied for this position out of 450 students nation wide to fulfill only 17 positions. There were two phone interviews within the process and by the grace of God I made it to the four finalists for this position. I got so far with His grace. Through this process God revealed a passion inside of me that I never knew I had. I can confidently tell you that I did everything I could have done to get this job. I knew the right people, who gave me great recommendations, I took a tour of the company, made connections, and even applied as a volunteer to get my name higher in the application process. However in the end this was all just a confirmation that God had a different plan for me all along.
After sobbing for 30 minutes, I decided not to attend my first two classes of the day, and instead I drank my tea and stared at the wall in my living room. I didn’t know where to begin, or what to pray about, I just knew I needed to be with Him. So I sat down and listened to a sermon and afterwards began writing this blog.
How do people have hope without God. How would I have done any of this without Him. Simple answer: I wouldn’t have. We serve a mighty God who has incredible plans for our future, and if I didn’t have a relationship with the God of universe and I didn’t trust in the truths He has declared for my life I would probably still be mopping around about my failure in not getting this job. In fact I probably would have spent the whole day, plus some, beating my self up about my failure and my inadequacies. Instead I serve a God of promises, I serve a God of faithfulness, I serve a God of goodness.
“I will give thanks to you O Lord among the peoples I will sing praises to you among the nations. For your steadfast love is great above the heavens your faithfulness reaches to the clouds” –Psalm 108:3-4
“And we know that for those who love God all things work together for good, for those who are called according to his purpose.” –Romans 8:28
Pure love right there!
There are times in our lives when things don’t go the way we planned, maybe we think are plans are the right ones, but to our surprise God has an even better plan. Usually God has plans better than we could ever imagine for our lives. When things turn upside down, or in the opposite direction in which we hoped, run to God. When things turn out wonderfully, run to Him. This year I have learned the importance of running to God in good times and bad, and learning how to praise Him in every circumstance. It’s easy to forget to thank God when we receive huge blessings in our life, and it’s hard to praise God when tragic events happen in our life. I try to remember that God is my father in heaven, and just like my parents on earth, I would run to them with good news or bad news, so why wouldn’t I do the same with God!
Meanwhile, after God shut the door for that position he opened the door for another position. I just recently accepted an offer to be a backpacking guide for a summer camp in Estes Park, Camp Timberline. Ironically this offer was on the table when the interview process for the other job started, however I was so blinded by this incredible potential opportunity that I brushed the camp position aside. The job was available the whole time, and in Gods perfect timing I accepted the backpacking position the last week the position was available.
There is always a meanwhile. Through this experience I was encouraged once again to see God constantly working through the midst of adversity. God uses experiences like these and other to transform us into the people he wants us to be. God is always orchestrating something good, you may not be able to see it right away, but He’s show you eventually!
Hope this is an encouragement to all who may have gone through, or are still going through rough situations. Never forget that God is working good in the midst of adversity!